12:45 in the AM my thoughts are unsure, anxious and more willing perhaps to be something--anything-- more than what I am at the moment. It is one of those year in review type of things leading up to my birthday (God-willing). Another year to question my past motives, present situation and future endeavors, Allahu Alim. Often times that brings about hope and joy, but also lies the possibility of slight depression in all perspective. We will never amount to the total expectations of anyone else' aspirations more or less if we cannot arrive at a settle contentment that what we aim for most in life (the important things) have the tendency to be directly in our mist. I'm evermore striving for a clarity in this realization, I admit. In my own personal highs and lows of life, I think hopefulness has kept me at an acceptable sanity level, coupled with an passable dosage of faith. In my good nature to see the positiveness in most all situations, I'm determined I must view life and all that is contained within and outside of our humanly grasp as special discoveries. It is my constant that when humanity seems a failure with all of the bad (our doing, no doubt), than all of the good truly is a beautiful reflection of balance that Allah is the Al-Mighty in absolute control. It is my hope to ride stronger the waves of possibility, I can't stand to settle anymore than I have already. I honestly feel that I do have a lot in me to show and in the highest of hopes, make some effective change in an era of massive change made evolving ever more through the lens of our continuously evolving high tech/speed technology.

Just some thoughts, I'm off to bed now
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