1 am shock alert. I'm a little bit conflicted...yes, what else is new? So, I ride the grand Metropolitan Transit Authority relatively frequent now as I commute to the city for work. What kind? You know, no specifics. However, what amazes me and conflicts me all the same is the nature of human nature. It's interesting when your able to step outside of the shell of being and observe this. Really. You see every kind. The wealthy, rich, middle-class, poor, etc. and these dynamics mesh to create a metropolis of variation. Just observe the idea that we harbor of our own unique natures (me included), by stressing this through the multi-color ipod airplugs. green, purple, pink, blue, classic white. we whip out the iphones and blackberrys or as they have come to be known as the crackberry's, little leashes by which an employer may have access to you at all times. we yearn to show we have style over fadish fashion statements...often time failing at some point because we end up replicating someone or another (it's Ok! My mama loved to always say "there is nothing new under the sun" in other words, we really aren't THAT unique because chances are it has already been done before). We loathe at the opportunities afforded to others so easily because we seem to constantly work our asses off to achieve a fraction of the momentum (...or perhaps that's me hmm :-x). We strive to thrive on a revolutionary level. we strive to be something of greatness at least enough time to get noticed, hence the continuous overstated emphasis of "carpe diem," I vote fore Carpe Momento, to be perfectly frank. What is my point to all this? we Want to set ourselves apart, and yet, we are relative reflections of the the same exact thing. You know the quote...we all know the quote. "Be the change you wish to see" It's a take home point that to be anything more than average, we need to consider precisely the consideration of others. Of recent news, Palestine and Israel are at it in heightened levels. As a Muslimah, I can feel nothing short of hurt for my Muslim brothers and sisters, but as a human and a part of humanity, I can only feel pain for all my people relative to my faith or not. Why do we hate each other so much when at the end of the day we are only hating ourselves? So, my train rides...that's society in amends. It's change. perhaps because we are forced to be in the same confines by the nature of all needing to get where we are going, but we are in it together. Expressed or understated, we make a statement of the human condition by the mere extension of our presence. The honorable Anthony Kennedy once stated at a Stanford forum so perfectly:

"Our best security is in a world of ideas and a world of ideas must be concerned with the human condition."

So, I ask the question: how could we possibly bring about sincere ideas when we suffer at the hands of each other. we love the "self" concept it seems so very much that it's killing our perception of collective reality. I'm attempting to stay positive. You've ever read the classic "The catcher in the rye"? Well, main character Holden Claudfield in his vastly cynical and sarcastic nature, at the end of the day wants nothing more than to save those who couldn't imagine anything beyond their own lives...they were ready and willing to just jump and get it all over with. He would be the catcher waiting and ready to save them. I guess you can say I'm a bit of that optomistic fool. I'm uncertain, understandable sometimes, a little lost, but mostly just aiming for something I'm entirely unsure of at the moment.

Ahh! these are just my rants in this 1 am hour...I'm not even sure if they make sense, but then again. MY blog, sensible or not...subjective nonetheless.